Narcissism

Today in group I learned that I was pretty darn narcissistic back in my using days. It was all about me, me, me! How I feel was way more important than how others feel. I'm unique, special, smarter, stronger, cooler and above everyone else in this group. theyr'e below me. Why should I communicate with them when they're not as intelligent as I am.
The more important thing that I learned was that underneath all my specialness is an extremely wounded individual. the amazing is that there were others in my group that felt the same way I did. When I was using I didn't feel loved except buy the pot I smoked. I didn't feel accepted buy anyone except my good friends Jim Beam and Jack Daniels. I was worthless unless I did a line or two or three and so on.
In group my counselours helped me see that I am loveable, worthy, smart, a winner, not ugly or fat and they helped me see that these things are true win I'm sober. I am important, but not anymore important than anyone else.
-Todd C.,Addict/alcoholic