My Drugs of Choice Are Dead

In group today I learned about grief. Since Istopped using I've felt like i'm going crazy. I'm angry one second, crying the next. I try to convince myself that I don't have a problem one minute and I accept that I have to say goodbye to meth the next. My emotions are so out of wack I've got to be nuts. My counselors taght me that I was grieving drugs because they were the closest relationship I've ever had. I guess I'll have to accept the fact that I'm not going crazy, I just have to say goodbye. -Jan B.-

The Path of Addiction

"The path you choose can lead to your end, when you have an addiction."

-Jayson I.

Narcissism

Today in group I learned that I was pretty darn narcissistic back in my using days. It was all about me, me, me! How I feel was way more important than how others feel. I'm unique, special, smarter, stronger, cooler and above everyone else in this group. theyr'e below me. Why should I communicate with them when they're not as intelligent as I am.
The more important thing that I learned was that underneath all my specialness is an extremely wounded individual. the amazing is that there were others in my group that felt the same way I did. When I was using I didn't feel loved except buy the pot I smoked. I didn't feel accepted buy anyone except my good friends Jim Beam and Jack Daniels. I was worthless unless I did a line or two or three and so on.
In group my counselours helped me see that I am loveable, worthy, smart, a winner, not ugly or fat and they helped me see that these things are true win I'm sober. I am important, but not anymore important than anyone else.
-Todd C.,Addict/alcoholic

Your Decisions

"You are responsible for all of your experiences of life."

-Lessons4Living

The Serenity Prayer

God grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change; courage to change the things I can;and wisdom to know the difference. Living one day at a time; Enjoying one moment at a time; Accepting hardships as the pathway to peace; Taking, as He did, this sinful world as it is, not as I would have it; Trusting that He will make all things right if I surrender to His Will;That I may be reasonably happy in this life and supremely happy with Him Forever in the next.

Amen.

Never Give Up!

"I'm going to get through this; I'm going to be fine. The power to do it is all in my mind."

-Cindy Wagner